Lindsay Please

I’m being an adult and moving past things and trying my hardest,
but sometimes it feels like my horrible karma is coming back to me,
tenfold.
It’s deserved, don’t get me wrong.
All the pain I’ve put people through?
I deserve a swift kick by the powers that be.
But it didn’t have to be like that.

It would be really cool
if I could take a deep breath right now,
but that’s just not how my anxious brain wants to react.

I try to be the optimist,
that’s my job.
Always looking on the brighter side of things,
finding a silver lining for everything,
but I’m absolutely exhausted.

I’m tired of putting on a brave face.
Why can’t I be the bitch for once,
instead of this awkward child hiding in the corner?
One day…